In Sickness and In Health

Yesterday was one of the worst days of my recent school life.
I spilled cappaccino on my books, one of which was borrowed.
I rode my bike to school only to have it start raining later in the day.
I forgot my Ethics journal at home, resulting in a zero for the day's assignment.
I received strong evidence that a friend is in disfavor with me.
And I had, and still have, one of the worst migraines of my migraine history. I NEVER have a migraine that lasts over 24 hours!

I try to lie down but my eyes are wide open. I try stand up but have to gain my balance.
I try to eat without an appetite, chewing what tastes like sawdust and forcing a swallow.

The teacher is talking but I don't hear what she says. I try to write "untreated" and it comes out "untreaded", "remodeled" comes out "remolded."
My head is so heavy and my body so weak. I shake and tremble. My heart pounds and I have to catch my breath.

But something about my recent week tells me that something else is going on with my yesterday and today.

See, I cleaned out my fridge and replaced the insides with almost nothing but fruits and vegetables and bread. I cleaned up my diet, trying to clear out my mind. And I added essential minerals and vitamins that I miss. (We'll see how long this lasts...my sweet tooth still has a hold on me!)

I started mountain biking.
I started Raquetball.
I started swimming.
I started volunteering.

But most importantly, I started having weekly meetings with a group of friends to pray for a revival in our spiritual lives and in Berrien Springs. I started a quest for a radical prayer life after a friend shared with me that the spiritual revivals and reformations of history can always be tracked back to a radical prayer life of one solitary person.

And something tells me that someone doesn't like it.

But you know what? In sickness and in health, Jesus, you are the One I come home to at night. And not only that but the One I hold hands with throughout the day. Though I get distracted with the struggles, I will never turn away from You.
Forgive me for the distraction that I have given in to. Forgive me for my weaknesses. Forgive me for being 'too sick' to pray. But I am here to proclaim that I will not let the enemy win. I am yours. In sickness and in health. You are the love of my life and no one else.

Ah.

I'm feeling a change in the winds already....

"Suddenly the wind stopped, and there was a great calm.... And they were filled with awe and amazement. They said to one another, "Who is this man, that even the winds and waves obey him?"